utter depression
Friday, February 03, 2006
9:37 PM
i find no more meaning in life anymore.feeling utter rejection.
and no one is making it any better.
maybe if he was here.
maybe.
just maybe.
he would make it all better.
but could he?
i ask.
could he?
save what's left of my messed up life.
my answer to my own question?
no.
it's too messed up.
too dead and dry.
too dark and lonely.
sunken too deep that no one can reach it.
no one can save it.
me.
and my messed up life.
shall just crawl up in a corner and cry.
cause that's just where people like us.
out of their buisnesses and out of the lives.
cause that's all i do.
be annoying.
be irritating.
that's all.
and yet again.
feeling more rejection.
tears just flow.
i don't know how long.
how long since i've died.
since i've lost faith in the human race.
only to seek comfort in the arms of darkness.
how long since i gave up on myself.
how long since i've started to fall apart from what i used to be able to call my 'friends'.
how long since my life has fallen apart.
and yet again.
falling into the depths of darkness.
and stumbling.
and falling.
and stumbling.
and falling.
stubbling.
falling.
dying.
K-LOVE
notsoSUNNILY and one of these days when i go berserk,
you better hope that i don't have a knife with me.